Every menopause symptom I'm having right now (hot flashes, joint pain, bloating, negative libido, headaches, dizziness, brain zaps, trouble sleeping, exhaustion, tingling fingertips, etc. ad nauseam), is currently taking a backseat to major depression. Major. Depression. Apparently, it's worse for women like me who have a history of depression ✔ or who have had postpartum depression ✔ Let's see...have I been depressed for most of the day for at least two weeks? Try two plus years, but yes. Do I no longer have interest in things I used to enjoy? I can't even answer that the way I'd like to, but the answer is a resounding, yes. Well, honey, lucky for me (and for you, too, if you find yourself nodding your head as you read this) there are secondary symptoms to this major depression, like icing on a very bad cake. They include:
Yep...reality. It makes basic daily living hellacious. Now, pile on the inability to find a job, an empty bank account, no food in the fridge, a gas/antifreeze guzzling car that barely runs, a lot of time alone, and no one to talk to who really understands any of this. I talk to God a lot. I count my blessings. Honestly, though, it feels like hollow gestures at this point. When life is black, bleak and blue it is hard to climb out of the darkness. May as well put my fat ass at Everest base camp and point me up the hill.....
Would anti-depressants or hormone replacement therapy help? Possibly, but I've been down that road after my daughter was born...Zoloft, Prozac, Celexa, Effexor, Wellbutrin...the doctor tried for years to find a pill that didn't affect me adversely. It was a nightmare. I really wanted to take this menopause journey with no medication. I would love to hear from any women who may be going through a similar experience. I started this blog to have an honest, transparent dialog about the menopause journey, and so far I've been alone on my sojourn. I have, minimum, three to five years more menopause-ing to go...someone throw me a frickin' bone, please!!
Peace
- fatigue
- restlessness
- feelings of worthlessness or guilt
- thoughts of suicide or death
- trouble sleeping
- oversleeping
- trouble concentrating
Yep...reality. It makes basic daily living hellacious. Now, pile on the inability to find a job, an empty bank account, no food in the fridge, a gas/antifreeze guzzling car that barely runs, a lot of time alone, and no one to talk to who really understands any of this. I talk to God a lot. I count my blessings. Honestly, though, it feels like hollow gestures at this point. When life is black, bleak and blue it is hard to climb out of the darkness. May as well put my fat ass at Everest base camp and point me up the hill.....
Would anti-depressants or hormone replacement therapy help? Possibly, but I've been down that road after my daughter was born...Zoloft, Prozac, Celexa, Effexor, Wellbutrin...the doctor tried for years to find a pill that didn't affect me adversely. It was a nightmare. I really wanted to take this menopause journey with no medication. I would love to hear from any women who may be going through a similar experience. I started this blog to have an honest, transparent dialog about the menopause journey, and so far I've been alone on my sojourn. I have, minimum, three to five years more menopause-ing to go...someone throw me a frickin' bone, please!!
Peace
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